That is the place I bow out: A correspondence with director Mike Hodges

by Graham Bendel It was a punch within the abdomen. My buddy and mentor Mike…

by Graham Bendel

It was a punch within the abdomen.

My buddy and mentor Mike Hodges had died and I used to be deeply saddened. I’d not even met him, knew little about his private life however was reeling from the sudden information of his passing.

We’d talked through electronic mail about a lot: movies, tradition, the trade, politics, his profession; and he was scathing and bitter about lots of stuff. “Nobody offers a fuck about me?!” he’d say. I used to be starting to suppose he had some extent.

A few years in the past, I’d approached his agent, as I used to be in search of somebody to direct the movie of a guide I’d simply written. Actually, I’d no concept that Mr Hodges would get again to me and even his agent would go the message on. However he did reply and he was surprisingly gracious, and really serious about my brief novel, The Comforter; and even in me.


Very touched you considered me.

Sadly I haven’t made a movie since 2002.

Ten years of these twenty I spent failing to finance two tasks.

That’s what occurs if you refuse to compromise.

Nonetheless – I’m shocked I obtained any made in any respect.

Everybody is aware of Get Carter (Tarantino’s favorite British movie) and  Flash Gordon – although not so many realised he’d directed it. They’d even be au fait with the shock hit, Croupier – the trendy casino-crime thriller starring Clive Owen, Hodges’ official return to type within the late 90s. Not as many have been acquainted with Black Rainbow (1998), Pulp (1972), The Terminal Man (1974). Though the trade and audiences may need been oblivious or detached to those lesser-known motion pictures – they’d already made their aesthetic marks on Stanley Kubrick, Terence Malick  and J. G. Ballard. Malick even wrote to him, saying: “Your photos make me perceive what a picture is”. Excessive reward certainly.

So Hodges – a ache within the arse of many trade varieties – was most positively an artist’s artist. And this was why I wished him to direct my movie. Besides I’d not achieved my maths. If he made Carter in ‘71, then he was loads older than I imagined.

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After citing a well being situation, and saying he’d definitely made his final movie – he thought I ought to direct it myself, and promised he’d educate me what to do. Nonetheless, how’d I get the cash? Hodges had funding issues regardless of making one of many nation’s best ever movies!

After some time, realizing it was the one life like method to get trade curiosity in my movie – he persuaded me to jot down a screenplay for The Comforter – an concept I used to be initially immune to. So I’d ship him drafts and he’d undergo them with me – looking for weaknesses, making options, guiding the entire thing. After copious emails going forwards and backwards, he’d generally inform me: “now relaxation”. For God’s sake, he was 89!!  However he was positively sharp as a tack and glowing with concepts and ideas. The period of time he spent serving to me was staggering.

What astounded me about Mike, by means of our correspondence, was his skill to make you are feeling vital, related, gifted even. I’d heard that from different folks about his heat, and the way inspirational he was. I discovered him selfless at instances.29/9/21

Unbelievable – actually unique, my buddy.

Sadly that is the place I bow out – the experience now required isn’t in my present.

At all times hopeless at elevating finance – see my CV – I’d be much more so now.

I’m simply happy to have at the least triggered the writing of this excellent screenplay.

He didn’t bow out simply then, as we talked for a lot of extra months, with him sending me extra of his writing and me studying it, then critiquing it.  And me maintaining him knowledgeable about progress on the script.
Extra continuously, he’d speak of well being points and varied issues. However he did so in a means that was dramatic, imaginative and poetic even.

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It’s nice to know that at the least one different particular person has learn these tales, Graham – and appreciates them. 

Anyway I accomplished the newest course of antibiotics yesterday which meant I can drink alcohol once more.

For many years pink wine has been my key to sleep – with out it I endure from insomnia i.e. hell!

So it was again to the bottle final night time and bliss returned – I hadn’t realised that these medication kill all the things of their path – together with creativeness and desires. 

Final night time I wallowed in each – however forgot to place the cat out – it duly woke us at round 4 am!!

In the meantime, we’d discuss Waugh’s The Beloved One, Peter Langan’s alcoholism, whether or not or not Jarvis Cocker obtained the title Pulp from Hodge’s 1972 movie. We’d talk about Roy Budd (who did the theme for Get Carter), John Huston, politics, cretinous critics and the suffocating nature of the film world. He’d inform me to not really feel insecure about my writing and in contrast my materials to Terry Southern, a literary hero of his. A large praise. Then it might transpire he’d met Southern. So what was it like, what did you discuss?
“Each time we met we obtained so drunk it’s troublesome to recollect rather more than laughter”, was his reply, and that was ok for me.

I feared his dying would occur sooner or later however was so glad that the BFI managed to schedule a retrospective of his life’s work, whereas he was nonetheless with us. As a part of the retrospective, Mike was interviewed by broadcaster Samira Ahmed. It was a brilliantly curated account of his profession and it made him fairly proud. Individuals most definitely did give a fuck.

Mike couldn’t attend the screenings however I’d typically inform him how many individuals attended, what the environment was like, the kind of folks, the vary of ages. He invited me to observe a roughcut of his biographical documentary, All at Sea, at a BFI screening room. It was a witty, insightful movie, narrated by himself, and infrequently harking back to Adam Curtis when it comes to its curiosity in regards to the world and the extent of research on supply. It was transferring, humorous, totally different and wildly fascinating.

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Samira Ahmed offered me with an exquisite “remaining bow and wave” to my profession, Graham.

The muddle of this retrospective is now behind me – I can now settle into the outdated age I’d all the time imagined.

I didn’t converse to Mike for a number of months earlier than he died, I felt  – maybe wrongly – that I used to be taking on an excessive amount of of his time and perhaps sporting him out. I actually remorse not telling him how a lot our friendship meant to me, and the way useful his encouragement had been.

This was one of many remaining exchanges we had, once I excitedly advised him that I’d discovered an agent to signify our script. My agent (Matthew Smith) was very a lot an admirer of Mike’s work and was serious about what Mike considered Stallone’s model of Get Carter. He’d additionally proven his son – somebody averse to ‘older’ motion pictures – the unique of Carter and it obtained a giant thumbs up.


That’s a fantastic electronic mail to get, Graham.

It’s so unusual residing in a world the place solely the “now” issues.

Perhaps it was all the time thus?

As an outdated man I see the identical issues being recycled time and time once more.

Within the 60s we thought we’d severed so many Gordian knots – how naive !

Thatcher retied them and so we go on and on in a unending charade.

Speaking of charades it’s robust watching Johnson’s performing sycophants with out throwing up.

For a similar motive I’ve by no means risked Stallone’s model.

Nice that you just’ve obtained an agent – hope he will get issues transferring.

Be in contact.